ideasease.

not my photo, but applicable nonetheless

* this is not directly photography related- you've been warned ; ) *

yes, i just made up a word- and with good reason. lately i've had ideas and inspiration coming out my ears. thanks to recent events in my life, the Lord has been really showing me who i am; who i've always been- who i was created to be. for some time i've been stuck in a rut- in relationships, in business, in my walk with Jesus, and in my life in general- and it was killing me. i felt like i was walking alongside a tall wall, not even realizing it was a wall (until now). i finally came upon a door in the wall, which intrigued me... if there's a door, that means there is something on the other side. i looked through the peephole and stood in awe as i saw the glorious riches (ephesians 2:4-7) on the other side that i had been missing for so long- because i had doubted if they were really there. i am starting to understand that there are no shortcuts to anywhere worth going...can i get a witness? whether it be in a relationship, or in your faith, or in your business - the learning, the growing, the joy, the fun- its in the journey. it can be grueling at times- growing pains of sorts, but the end reward is worth it (james 1:12). so that's where my new word comes from- ideas + disease, i have an ideas disease. this ideasease has started small by looking through the peephole of my own fears and insecurities. i was looking into the hope of the future (jeremiah 29:11-14) that i have been granted by grace- and now it is growing and spreading and taking over (very much disease-like, but in a good way). i have so many ideas, new projects that are starting to blossom, new friendships, new new new. i wake up excited, sometimes not even sure why, but knowing that this feeling is just the smoke- the evidence of the rekindled fire for life deep in my heart. so cheers- cheers to kicking down the door of my stupid walls, to take hold of (phillipians 3:12-15) what is ahead- by faith. and you know what i am most thankful for? that there was a door in this wall. praise be to Jesus that when he died for us, the earth quaked, the sky darkened, and the curtain of the temple was torn in two (the curtain that was separating us from intimacy with the father), and that He became the open door for us into the possibility of new life in him. this, my dear readers, is joy!


1 O God, you are my God,
earnestly I seek you;
my soul thirsts for you,
my body longs for you,
in a dry and weary land
where there is no water.

2 I have seen you in the sanctuary
and beheld your power and your glory.

3 Because your love is better than life,
my lips will glorify you.

4 I will praise you as long as I live,
and in your name I will lift up my hands.

5 My soul will be satisfied as with the richest of foods;
with singing lips my mouth will praise you.

6 On my bed I remember you;
I think of you through the watches of the night.

7 Because you are my help,
I sing in the shadow of your wings.

8 My soul clings to you;
your right hand upholds me.

psalm 63:1-8


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